pessemistic realist.
I crossbread the two.

Unfortunately, I have already been informed that little of my organs are avaliable for use. But, had I the free will and options, I would donate my entire body to Science. Transplants.

sunnydale highh from buffy the vampire slayer. though I probably wouldn't last long there...

Title: We Were Boxing The Stars.
Author: smashapumpkin1
Rating: PG, mentions of sex and drugs.
Pairing: Jon Walker/Brendon Urie. Vague mentions of Ryan Ross/Brendon Urie & Jon Walker/Tom Conrad.
POV: Third, Jon-centric.
Summary: AU. He was not, and had never been just another groupie to Brendon. They had exchanged phone numbers afterwards, and Brendon had left Illinios smelling like Jon's bed sheets.
Disclaimer: Not real, never happened. Title to Jack's Mannequin, cut to Counting Crows.
Author Notes: For Desi. It's only a breif look into the angsty relationship of Brendon and Jon at the time. Enjoy.

( catch me if i'm falling. )

Title: Every Time You’re On His Side.
Author: smashapumpkin1
Rating: NC-17.
Pairing: Brendon Urie/Shane Valdez, Brendon Urie/Ryan Ross.
Summary: Brendon and Ryan were best friends for years, before developing mutual feelings for one another. Choosing friendship over attraction, they gave up on what could have been. One year down the line, Brendon comes to terms with his attraction to Shane, but there's one thing holding him back; Ryan. In turn, Brendon decides to keep his relationship with Shane a complete secret.
Disclaimer: Not real, though I can't say that it never happened without the Panic boys. This isn't a storyline, just a basic, accurate account of my last relationship. Title to The Kooks and cut to Vampire Weekend.
Author Notes: Admittedly, it was really, really hard for me to write this. This goes out to my ex, whom both saved and ruined me at the same time. Just because I hate you doesn't mean I don't still love you.

( know your boyfriend, unlike other guys. )

Title: Rains The Rain.
Author: smashapumpkin1
Rating: NC-17.
Pairing: Ryan Ross/Brendon Urie.
POV: 3rd, looms over Ryan.
Summary: AU. A heat spreads all the way from Brendon through Ryan’s oesophagus, and trails all over his body. Brendon’s breathing feels like desert wind sweeping through his lungs. Ryan thinks of Nevada, the desert, his home, and he tries to stop thinking of Brendon’s kisses as a homecoming.
Disclaimer: Not real, never happened. Title belongs to Jack's Mannequin, cut to Panic At The Disco, and the rest is mine.
Author Notes: This standalone is my interpretation of this song entitled 'You Can Breathe' by Jack's Mannequin. I'm not usually big on the angst, but here's a miniscule snippet of it for you to enjoy. Oh, and a big, big helping of car!sex. Give it up for five and a half pages of smut! :]
Dedication: This goes four ways. petsalamanderx , silentpoetry1 , viva_la_desi & kwalktown.


( You don't have to worry, 'cause we're still the same. )

Title: Let's Get Wrecked On Poptarts And Sex.
Author: smashapumpkin1
Rating:R.
Pairing:Ryan/Brendon, Brendon/Brie, Ryan/Brie.
POV: Third.
Summary: It was the exact replica of Brendon. Dark eyes, full lips, accentuated hips. The only difference was, it was a girl.
Disclaimer:If you think that this is real, you’ve got some serious issues. Title belongs to Motion City Soundtrack.
Author Notes: So, someone, who will remain nameless, wanted this. I was only able to comply because I would never say no to this kid. This is the meaning of crack!fic, honestly.
Warnings: Genderswap…kind of. Oh, and there’s actually straight sex. Be afraid…
Dedications: Brenshine, because only he is stupid enough to actually do this. Oh, and Sammi, as per usual.


( To this day, Brendon still blames it on the poptarts, and Pete Wentz. )